“This is what it’s all about. It’s about knowing that everything you ever have, every moment, every material thing, will pass and you will lose it, and there’s nothing you can do about it. All you can do is close your eyes and live it, feel it, smell it, taste it as much as you can while you have it, and then never look back. And not even forward because all you will ever have is here and now, and that’s where you have to be.”Charlotte Eriksson, “The Glass Child”
Hindsight is always 20/20.
If I think too long about it, it makes me sick to realize all of the time and money I have lost throughout the years, chasing all the wrong things. Sure, I was a single mom and had to earn a paycheck in order to care for myself and my daughter. And, of course, there were things that she wanted throughout the years that I worked overtime in order to give her. There were dance classes and uniforms, books and toys, ipods and music. Then came her interest in Nintendo games and Wii, brand name clothes and shoes. Then I started running – so I also took on race registrations, running shoes, moisture wicking clothing, and travel expenses to and from events.
It wasn’t until we lost our parents, when my sister and I were faced with clearing out their houseful of STUFF, that I realized how pointless everything really is – and how I’d do anything to give it all back in exchange for the time that could have been spent experiencing, rather than acquiring.
In the years since, my vision has cleared greatly. I’ve simplified my life and am beginning to experience greater peace and happiness because of it. I used to work 50-60 hour weeks. I now work 23. I used to carry balances, drowning myself in debt, with a credit score in the mid-600’s. I now pay off all of my expenses monthly and maintain a credit score in the mid-800’s. Sure, the amount of my monthly paycheck has greatly decreased – but the experience of living my life on my own terms, according to what make me happy, has greatly increased.
In a world where everybody seems to want for everything, it’s such a relief to realize how very little I actually need.
Some might take a look at the material things in my life and say that I “have nothing”… but I know that, in reality, when it comes to the quality of my life – which is full of love, joy, happiness, peace, and gratitude – the undeniable truth is that I lack nothing!